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Be careful

Thursday, February 11th, 2010
A very wise man once told me that doctors are not always men/women of science, they are men/women of adventure.  That’s why they call it “practicing” medicine.
Several years ago I had an accident that left me injured and unable to walk.  I went through the traditional medical tests and treatments such as MRI, Epidural blocks, X-rays, Nerve conduction studies, etc.  In the end, the practitioner proclaimed that my injury was permanent and prescribed a very powerful and addictive pain medication for me.  I was told the nerve damage was permanent and that I would likely have to be on pain medication the remainder of my life.
I spent six months in a wheel chair, crutches, and eventually a cane to help me get around.  It seemed as though the doctors had been right and that this was the best outcome I could expect.
Roughly eighteen months of pain medication later, I realized something startling.  My cue that it was time to take my medication was not the onset of pain, but rather the onset of withdrawals from the pain medication.  What and epiphany!  It was at that moment I decided to do a little research.  Pain medications have been known to produce a brain response that actually induces pain, simply because it expects that pain to persist.  Once the body rids itself from the effects of the pain medication, this brain response ceases.  I realized that it would be difficult dealing with the symptoms of withdrawal, but I was determined to rid my body of all residual effects of this medication.  I spent a week feeling terribly ill; flu like symptoms.  Once that hell week had passed, not only did I not feel the pangs of withdrawal, but the pain never returned.  I was finally free.  No pain, no need for medication, and certainly no need for a cane or crutches.  It was like a miracle.
So, what’s my point for sharing my story?  Challenge the ideal that anything has to be permanent.  Don’t be afraid to consider the possibility that the mind and body have the power to heal, even when medical science dictates otherwise.  Believe in the power of mind over body and open your mind to infinite possibilities.  Most importantly, believe in the power of self.


Secrets by DH

Wednesday, October 14th, 2009

I’ve built an empty corridor
As far as my eyes can see
Along each side a row of solid doors
Doors to which I’ve thrown away the key

Mommy taught me well
To keep their contents secret
I was told to never tell
each room contained regret
I keep them in the attic
While I dwell merely one floor below
In my prison with walls so thick
The morning sun can never glow

In my self-made prison cell
I keep a smile upon my face
I wear it so that no one can tell
I’ve all but given up the race

My prison now feels like a tomb
It’s the worst loss I’ve ever known
You see the setting is my living room
And it’s purpose in my life that I have let go

I walk that lonely corridor alone and cold
The oaken doors weathered with age
And even though they still are closed
I can still feel all the hurt and locked up rage

With every breath I took
I tried to earn her heart
I never let anyone near enough to look
I promised her I’d keep them in the dark

One by one the locks are beginning to fail
I cannot kill them or make them go away
All my demons are free sail
And slowly I have lost my way

When I finally lock myself away
Behind those weathered doors
I will look to her and say…
See mommy, I really was your good girl
each and every day.

By Debbie Hawthorne



Wednesday, September 30th, 2009

“Mind pills”  a name I use for intellectual messages that trick the body into a sense of well being.  They create an illusion that intellectually over rides the body’s sense of  reality.  It works very much like pain killers do when one breaks a bone. The pill does nothing toward healing the bone.  It just subverts the body’s pain message.  The self hypnotic messages also do not correct the problem. They only interrupt the internal messaging system giving one a false reading.  This may be a good short term strategy but could lead to a breakdown when the issues are avoided too long. Pressures are prone to  build up until they can no longer be avoided. The overuse of the broken limb while under the influence of pain killers may even cause new problems.  Over use of the positive thinking can also lead to an overcompensation that causes more problems than were initially encountered.

It is my contention that a good life is contingent on learning how to use pain and manage the adaptations that the pain requires us to make.  We must remember that pain is only a message and recognize that it will not kill us.  The sooner we submit to the pains control the sooner we will maximize the potential for healing.

Michael Rebel LMHC



Friday, April 17th, 2009

Comfort is a biochemical state.  It is the hormonal cocktail preferred by the individual.  It consists of a unique formula of hormones within ones body.  The formula is concocted during the first 5 years of life.  Our system adapts to it and prefers it.  It becomes our homeostatic biochemical state.  We model our lives around situations that cause us to revisit this state.  It is in essence an addiction. We prefer it even though we profess to wanting something else we call happiness.  The medical profession then labels this discrepancy a “chemical imbalance” and sets out to to challenge it chemically.  Healing, breaking the habit (addiction),  is accomplished though breaking the old familial ties.

Michael Rebel LMHC


Goodies 03/11/09

Thursday, March 12th, 2009

Who we are and what we spend our life achieving is determined by what has gone “wrong” or driven us from the “mean”.  All of us are specialized by this diversion.  The degree of variance equals the level of trauma and the direction of the variance is specific, directly toward or directly away from the nature of the trauma.  It is the acceptance of our traumatic experiences and their influence that lead us to a sense of well being.

Michael Rebel